Mixed Emotions

My goodness, it's amazing how I can be so down in the dumps (I will explain in a moment) and then be so lifted by the love of one person ( will explain this too!)

Today started out so beautiful. I woke up to find a frost on all the car windows and a light fog that the sun was shining down through. I like to think Heavenly Father shines that light just for me sometimes! (Atleast, it makes me smile.)

I have decided to start cleaning once a month for a church member. She just needs a little pick up and since her MS is getting out of control, she's asked me to step in and help her husband out with the "womanly things". So, I get to her home and Eden is really enjoying himself. He is bringing so much joy to Sister M. and I get the sweeping and mopping done to move on to vacuuming.

I start the vacuum and Sister M. starts talking so I shut it off. She stops, I start again. Then she talks again, so I shut the vacuum off again. Third times the charm right?! Well, not in my case.... I started the vacuum and has not even pushed it forward and I head glass falling and the floor vibrate. All that I remember at that instant was both Sister M. & I saying "uh oh" at the same time. Her 5 shelf hutch collapsed. All 5 shelves, holding 5 generations of crystal that had been handed down from England.

I know I didn't cause the fall but I can't help but feel responsible. And sweet Sister M. does not hold me responsible at all. She said that Heavenly Father has a plan and was sure that her favorites were saved. I offered to immediately pick it up and sort through stuff with her, but she will wait until tomorrow and do it with her husband.

I haven't been able to get it out of my head since. But I will call her tomorrow and apologize again and see if I can come out and help out in any way. That is, if she will let me come over again!

So, as I've struggled all day with this I had a feeling to read through my blogs. I wrote a blog last week about Stake Conference and there was a single comment: "Thank you Staci, your words strengthen me." What? My words? Trust me, I am not one with wisdom or even the knowledge of how to use our language correctly! But D. knew to share the words that would lift my spirits and remind me that Heavenly Father does love me. And even through struggles, He will guide my path and keep me strong.

I am so thankful that Emiley married into the Rios family because they came into my life too. I think of them all constantly and D. and J. They are amazing people. And I am so thankful for the family with a special nephew and niece to light my path. Being an auntie is as amazing as being a mama.

Love,
Staci